Stay Strong.
It sucks, that everyday i feel like i might loose you. That you’ll find someone better then me just walking down the street. or loose your feeling for me and give your heart to someone else. Every time i fuck up or we argue i feel like i’m pushing you away and sooner or later you’ll just say fuck it all.. i know i’m not perfect. but i try so hard to do everything in my power to make you happy. I don’t feel like i’m succeeding to well. Any second you can slip from my fingers and get someone else 100x better then i am. Maybe i’m just over reacting and crazy but i feel like i need to get this out. Those pictures on my blog, of the suicidal and self harm people, are not me trying to show you i’m depressed, its me preparing myself for the way i’m gonna have to cope with the pain if i do loose you. And its not that you don’t make me happy. It’s just that when these are the thought that are always on my mind, its kinda hard to act okay all the time.
